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Did I pray too Hard? - A Dose of Encouragement



If you read any of my blog posts last year you may have noticed that I have mentioned a few times that


 I am Petite




I am 5 foot and half an inch tall.

I was usually the smallest or second smallest in my class at school and the youngest or second youngest as well.

I was the younger of two girls in our family with my sister being 10 years older than me and no brothers.

If you have read the Dose of Encouragement entitled "What a Face!"  you will know a bit about how I started going out with my husband  (if not click on the pic. below).



But I don't think I mentioned in that story that Fred is 6 foot tall so you can imagine the difference in our heights but if not, just have a look at the family pictures on my about me page.


All of my life I have never been allowed to forget that I am small.


My grandmother was a widow from long before I was born so she lived with us and right up to her death (a year after Fred and I were married) she referred to me as 


"the wee one" 


and this has been something my sister likes to remember.


My sister also loved to tease me about how I would need a step ladder to be able to reach up to kiss Fred, when we were going together.







After 5 years of marriage I got pregnant and we were very happy.  



I did have one concern and that was 


"what if the baby took after me and was small?"


So I prayed that my child would not be small like me, especially if this was a boy but also if the child was a girl, I just didn't want this child to feel as I had often felt (see "I Am Petite")

When Jonathan was born he was only 6 lb 6 oz but he was a long thin baby so I thought that this might be an indication that he would not be small.  However I continued to pray and sometimes mentioned to Fred that I was praying about this.

2 years later and we had another boy, Daniel who was heavier and about the same in length and I had already started praying about his height also.  

Then 3 years after that we had a girl and Linda was the heaviest of the three but not just as long as the boys had been.

You can probably guess that I had started praying about her height too before she was born.







As they got older we did as most parents do with their kids; we measured their heights on a wall chart.  We laughed often as we would see Jonathan sprouting up taller and then suddenly Daniel would catch up and they would be the same height for a while and then Jonathan would be taller again, and then the process would happen repeatedly.

When the boys were teenagers it was obvious that they were not going to be short so I was thankful that God had answered my prayers about them.  Then it was not long before Linda was taller than me and that made we very happy.

When Jonathan stopped growing he was just a little shorter than his father but by that time Daniel was taller than Jonathan and was gradually inching above Fred.  Even in his early twenties Daniel was still growing and when he finally stopped he was some inches taller than his dad.  Linda is also some inches taller than me so just a nice height and not too tall for a girl.

So if you look at the picture on the about me page you will know that Daniel is the one at the back of the group (that picture was taken at his wedding last year) and you can see what a difference there is between him and me, not just 12 inches but more like 15 inches.

What can I say other than  






Yes I also prayed for the health of my children and their education and understanding and everything else about them and still do, but I also believe that God knows what each of us feel and think at all times and He does give us 


the desires of our hearts




Now I know I am not taking a verse out of context here and not just being trite about this verse. 


This was a desire of my heart, something that meant a lot to me and God saw this, but He also knew that it was not out of greed that I made this request, it was not even really for my benefit instead it was for my children.

The verse comes from this passage

3Trust in the LORD, and do good; 
     so shall you dwell in the land, and verily you shall be fed.
4Delight yourself also in the LORD; 
     and he shall give you the desires of your heart.
5Commit your way unto the LORD; 
     trust also in him; and he shall bring it to pass.




and must be taken along with the verses around it and if I was being selfish or greedy then I would not be living as the rest of this dictates.


There are three words in that passage and we must obedient
 to TRUST, DELIGHT & COMMIT




I definitely committed this desire to the Lord and He brought it to pass.


I am so thankful that God cares about the desires of our hearts.







The only thing is sometimes I joke with Fred saying that 


"Maybe I prayed too hard because Daniel is so tall now".




Have you taken the desires of your heart to God or have you just hidden them in your heart?